As many of you may know, I love writing about my feelings and thoughts here on my bloggy home! A lot of the time I feel like what I write on here doesn't really matter or stack up against other posts from other bloggers in the cybersphere. Maybe it's because I don't have a lot of followers or comments on my posts so it seems like its just another thing that is invisible. I know I shouldn't be worried about this because it is my blog and why does it matter what other people think? Just makes me feel insignificant at times.
Anyways.. I am very excited about this new link up that I have found via Expecting the Unknown. It is called Just Write and is brought to us by The Extraordinary Ordinary. This link up is to have you write about what you are feeling and the thoughts that may seem unimportant. So here I am writing about my feelings and will be linking up! Its a lot of an introduction though, so I apologize! If you are interested in linking up as well, just click on the button below!
Right now I am still thinking about how much pressure I am feeling to get a job. I feel as if I am just taking my husband for granted while he is working and I am at home all day taking care of a child. Being at home with Bent is fun and I don't really want to trade it up. Two incomes in our house would be really helpful though, and I don't think Logan would have such a hard time with letting me pamper myself once in a while. It seems like I never really got to experience all of the fun things that normal 18 year old's usually get to do. Why cant I just go get my nails done and go to a club? Well because I am responsible and love my child. I don't want to change this either, but shouldn't I be able to go out on the town with my girls while Bent stays with daddy for a night? Is that really too much to ask for? I just need to get a job... But what about paying for day care. Even living in Washington and having minimum wage be $8.50/hour that's not going to be enough to even pay for child care. Do you see where I struggle? I just feel stuck in the middle of a rock and a hard place where I am supposed to slither my way out in between. Ugh! I should just stop thinking about this and play it by ear right now until I know if I'm going to get into college or not. Money sucks... Period.